Gleneagles to Glasgow

Big skies of Scotland, trailing wood smoke, Fences, fields and tangled copses of wind-bent trees, Grazing clumps of sheep near reedy pond water. Bleak winter beauty viewed from the train, Cold hands fumble for the correct change.   Weirs of white water tumble past a Cathedral spire. Dogs and people stroll, Passengers wait and the … Continue reading Gleneagles to Glasgow

A Moment of Swans

Reflections on Writing and Friendship  Your plan for today was to write hard and fast, Control, seize and capture the words that would last the test of all time, beyond human recall, Instead you are daydreaming and your fingers have stalled.   ‘Remember this moment!’ she loudly declared, ‘What moment?’  You ask her whilst climbing … Continue reading A Moment of Swans

Martha

For the Perthshire Mummy Brigade   It’s 6 in the morning you’re lying in bed, You’re watching your husband get dressed and you’ve said: ‘Let me turn down your collar, I’ll straighten your tie.’ You’ve toasted his success, ‘Here’s mud in your eye!’ His new job is starting, he’s anxious as fuck, You hope that … Continue reading Martha

Scars

You died on Friday  on the day we were meant to go to Spain. Instead of sun and vitamin d, I sat in crushing pain, Repeatedly asking Why? Why? Why? over and over again.   Textbook grief: I did it all, those ‘stages’ every one, And all it really made me do was want to … Continue reading Scars

Complicit

You say ‘I’m sick, I cannot work,’ I say ‘Go take a nap.’ Your illness makes you howl and weep, My fingers itch to slap Your ravaged, ruined, stricken face. I don’t have any time for this, I’ve far too much to do, How can I help you manage what your sickness makes you do? … Continue reading Complicit

Homebirth

Seven months pregnant my belly so stretched Red lava running up my tummy to my breasts. Constantly fighting to have you at home - Frowns at my stubbornness, hips and rude tone, A big bonny baby is safe 'they' say Where nervous old midwives can monitor all day, But faith and conviction is a hard … Continue reading Homebirth